Sub Drop (Journal Entry)

So the other night something kinda odd happened to me.  I was making out with a very nice man, who was not being very nice to me in a very good way. Needless to say I was having a good time. I like this man, heck why else would I have been there in the first place if I didn't like him. When suddenly my emotions just dropped and I was flooded with insecurities. Now, I may not be the most experienced submissive but this isn't my first rodeo either. I am still trying to figure it all out.  Why did my emotions just drop like that? I mean I am not new to sub drop, it happens. But its never happened while making out with a guy.