Not dating

Now don't you go a'lyin

to say you're only friends

I find your stories trying

to hard the truth to bend

I swore I'd never hurt you

you never swore the same

 now that you've abandoned me

I am left to play this game

to watch you court another

while my heart aches in pain.

But do not think I want you

No, with you I am done

I'll sooner look to others

with which to have some fun

I'm done with all the playing

I'm done with all the lies

I'm off to find my joy now

with some other guys.

Broken

Once the initial shock wore off there was a profound emptiness and a questioning voice that wondered if anything had ever been real. She would often find her self staring at her hands, her shoes, or her face in the mirror and wonder who this person was. Her life had become disconnected from the ground and she was left with the perpetual sensation that she was floating above everything unable to land. Her heart, once warm and safe in the arms of her lover now betrayed her with every beat. Not even sleep offered a respite from the pain, for even in sleep she dreamed of nothing but loss and hardship. She often woke thinking she had been shot or stabbed in some graphic attack on her person and in that moment she would reach out for comfort and find only emptiness. It seemed as though this pain was likely to continue indefinitely and it was this thought that terrified her more than any other.

The loss of your friendship
weighs heavier
upon me
than the loss
of your heart
or mine

for hearts never given
can never be lost
but friendship
when  its real
should never be far off.

I fell hard and fast
like an egg
from the top
of
The Empire State Building.
my heart
splat
upon the pavement
you wouldn't recognize
the mess
it became
spread out
flattened
nothing
to protect it
or hold it together.

no yellow signs on the road

If your desire
was a deep
as the sea
inside your eyes
then nothing would
arrest
your heart,
as it chased after mine

but the truth
so much darker
empty
bleak
and void
its not your
fear
or caution
that keeps you
from my side

void

There is an emptiness
that resonates in my fingers
resides in my toes
makes a cavern of my heart

There is truth
that cannot be spoken
a pain to real to face
the truth is
I was nothing
just a body to fill your space

I left no mark upon your life
your home
or heart
or mind

Its as if I was never there
and this suits you just fine.